MY FIRST EVER DECISION

Well this is not what you really might think it is. This is different. This is different because its not the most obvious thing. If I say that my first ever decision was to join BMS College of Engineering, it becomes a very trivial fact. A very expected thing. People wouldn't take much notice of it really. And my first decision is something that you just cannot really think of. My first decision wasn't such an obvious thing. When I made the decision, I never really thought that its the first time I am doing something big! To ascertain the importance behind it, I would have to give a little bit of insight into why I actually talk about TAKING A DECISION!
Till the age of 10 most of us are not even aware of what really is happening in our lives. Parents form such an integral part of our life in that stage! Imagining what goes through an orphan at that stage of life is really disturbing. From 10 till 10th standard, my life was quite occupied by the competitions that haunt the students of today! Studies and sports were my personal favourites at that time. There was no time really to take a decision back then. Was more than happy to let my parents and teachers take the decisions of my life. Decisions included what to study, how to study, when to study, where to study, which sport to be part off and what best works for me?!. Since all these were happily done by others I never took up the burden of taking any decision at all. I simply focussed all my attention at the mad bull race of that age. Then came a time when we entered Pu college. Easily the best time for kids like me to get spoilt and take some false decisions. But then, thanks to the kind of friends I had and the kind of college that I was in, I was kept so busy with studies in those days that I hardly had the time to even think what I was doing. Never really had the option of choosing Science or Arts. Science was like the most obvious choice according to my marks they said. Had I even mentioned Arts or Commerce to anybody even as a joke they would catch me by my throat and strangle me to death. Science was written on my forehead and thus I managed to get into the most nerdy college of our city. Couldn't have asked for better environment to live my so called dreams. So 2 more years went by without a single decision of my life taken by me. This time it wa sthe turn of my parents again along with college lecturers and off course tution teachers. As though CET and board exam weren't enough, I was being inspired to take up JEE. JEE stands for Joint Entrance Test which is the selection exam for the IIT's. The college atmosphere was filled with questions from H C Verma and Khanna and Khanna, that my folks decided that I need not really take up the burden of thinking for myself also. So they took that up and let me fighting the great war of 2nd PUC. Henceforth no decisions were taken by me yet again in these 2 whole years.
After getting the desired result or may I say living up to the expectations of the world around, now I was ready for a new battle. Battle of Engineering. Again against expectations, the decision to get into BMS College of Engineering was taken mainly by my father. One of his friend's daughter had apparently done very well in this college and so had another son of my dad's brother's son's wife's cousin. So I was quite pushed into BMS College without much of a choice since they all said it was the best. So if getting into engineering wasn't my first decision, then what was it?
Engineering students from VTU will be very familiar with the system of Internals or internal assessment. In first semister I wrote them with such dedication. Something that people never associated me with, since second semister. But sincerity isn't what I am getting to. In VTU, scores of these internals are scored based on average of 2 best among 3 internals. That gave us the option of missing an internals. YES! Missing an exam till now was never really a choice! Every exam was treated like a battle which had to be won, no matter how ever good the army is! Now suddenly came the new choice of skipping the battle itself if the army isn't well prepared. A choice which led me to taking my first ever big decision of my life. A decision which would change the definition of the word exam in my dictionary. A decision that would solely be mine since telling it at home would lead to my mom taking a decision of throwing me out of the house. And yes I for the first time ever in my life decided to SKIP AN EXAM. Just an internal you might say, but to me it never was a choice before. For the first time ever I made a choice on my own, without parents, teachers, leacturers, friends involved in making the decision. I and I alone decided for the first time that I WILL NOT WRITE AN EXAM!
Bold move it proved to be later on though. Marks in internals were hard to come by. But i still am very proud of that day when I DECIDED to do so. Later I even decided to write internals as externals but thats a different story altogether. My first decision ever was made. I suddenly had the time to think for myself. What, where, when, how were now in my control. I now finally had grown up, matured enough, big enough to make mistakes and learn. Now its my turn to face the wheres, whens, whats, hows! Where, when, how will anyone remember me is now completely in my hands. What I do to the world is now my choice alone!:)